The assumption was that a disabled person can’t be a physically strong or attractive individual... the assertion was repeated so much that I internalized it: I reduced myself to just an actor who, due to my disability, could only play “bit” roles or disabled characters.
I tried to watch the first few episodes of Russian Doll but was distracted by myself constantly yelling at the TV, "It’s Groundhog Day! You’re being Groundhog Day-ed!!! How the fuck could you not have seen Groundhog Day???”